A Girl of Assertiveness

I am back!

2012-01-19T05:04:00.001+08:00

Hello!
Yeah i know i didnt update my blog like since forever cuz the life here is madness!
the things i need to study are like more than A level. worse of all, i had two years to prepare for A level and now, only two and a half months. so yeah. life is busy.

Anyway, i am sorta mentally challenged when i first entered. Why? imagine a person who has been teaching ABC for six months suddenly had a big turn over, studying muscles name like splenius capitis and nerves with the name of oculomotor. imagine how big the transition is. Nah, it is okay you dont get it. when my friend told me how hard medicine is, i couldnt imagine it till i am doing it myself.

But life here is fun. with friends and teachers and all the knowledge you are gaining, i think India is not a bad place to study too. I am only referring to Manipal because that's the place i am studying and we actually had the highest number of Malaysian students in India (GASP!). yeah i was shocked too. Anyway, it's not so bad except i kinda miss home and all the Malaysia food. :)

2 more weeks then i will be back to Malaysia. Then meeting up friends and do all the shopping with my family and loved ones. Gosh, i can imagine how my life would be in Malaysia in the coming February. But first i need to pass the hurdle in front of me - Block Test. All the best ya!

and the internet connection in my room sucks! gonna upload all the photos when i am back to malaysia. but i might be so busy that i dun have the time to do it. so wells, whichever it flows...

Signing off...

Cheers!

leaving is too hard for me.

2011-08-29T01:03:00.003+08:00

You know i have been repressing myself from thinking how much i will miss my parents when i am in india. i was thinking as long as i don't think about it, i wont feel anything. but the problem is that, i couldnt repress myself anymore. everything is like stuck at my throat and i feel so tired and numb.

I am too shy to say i miss you. sometimes when my dad hugged me, i can feel that it's more than a hug. it's like i am giving you more hugs now so i can save them inside my brain cell as backup whenever i feel homesick. and now i am avoiding to hug my sisters or my parents cause i know i will have tears.

i know i will regret for doing these to them. i dunno why i will regret but i am just being a selfish bitch not brave enough to buck up. am i? i have two weeks before i go to india and now i am feeling so sad alr. is it normal?

I cry very easily. in fact, i am crying right now cuz i will miss my family a lot. mehhh, so much dramas.

but i hate to cry. i dun like to cry in front of people. feel like i am so weak. but i always cry so easily. so i kinda hate myself too. anyway, i feel so sad right now. sob sob.

listening to cry/ asher book

2011-08-19T00:50:00.005+08:00

hi guys. i am lost. feeling that i cant be myself, the Siew Ping. oh sorry it is wrong. i am always lost. since i was studying in singapore. i felt that i lost my identity. and i don't really know who is siew ping. am i looking for the old siew ping or i am the new siew ping not aware of my own change or i am simple the old siewping finding the new siewping? confusing much ya. cuz that's what i am trying to figure out too.

people have their way of talking and dressing. but i don't feel like i have one. i am just talking for the sake of socializing and dressing for the sake of not getting caught by the police for walking around nude.

not that i want to be special and have a style of my own. but i never know how should i talk so i am being myself. i never know how should i dress so i know i am being myself. okay maybe dressing up shouldnt be included because it's about fashion and the trends. i will always go with the flow. people always go with the flow. that's how fashion comes.

anyway, advices are highly recommended.

I hate horror movies

2011-08-10T21:18:00.002+08:00

I hate a lot of things. One of those is horror movies. seriously, i wont pay like fifteen bucks for a show that will scare the hell out of me. i rather spend them on food, clothes, or my skincare products. Yes recently i am obsessed with skincare. I will shout hysterically when i saw watson because that where i got my supply ofr skincare products.

Anyway i asked my fren the reasons why they like horror shows, they said they did it for adrenaline rush. Hmmm, no i want no adrenaline rush. thank you. i like to laugh and relax when i watch a show. I am still quite affected by the horror movie i watched just now. Grrrr. luckily i dun sleep alone tonight.

i just dont like horror movies.

i love food

2011-08-07T23:21:00.003+08:00

so what to do when you are bored and you happen to be hungry?

Yes, i eat. and i love to eat. i love to look around all the food stores and all the restaurants wherever i go. cause i told ya, it's my interest. :)

and one of the fine days in June, i managed to have the time to go to City Square in JB. so i tried this in the basement of the shopping mall. it's called Sizzling Stonegrill.

me trying to show the menu nicely but FAIL miserably

i think i was really brave to enter a place which i am not familiar with by myself cause i seldom do that. my sister and i ordered a set for two which consist of chicken, beef and lamb i think? i am not very sure cause this was like in june. Haha... and they included two sets of fries.

so when we were waiting we just took photos and stuff, and it happened to have a crowd of teen girls i supposed around 14 or 15 yrs old (like i heck care). they were like gossiping to each other softly about we took photos in the restaurant blah blah blah... it's so funny blah blah blah.... they must be someone who hasn't eat in fine dining restaurant blah blah blah... okay not so softly perhaps cuz my sister overheard everything. I was like what the hell. if i wanna take photos, it's my right. i paid for the food and i like to take photos of good food cannot is it?

and luckily they only did that for a while, cause my sister was this close to confront with them. and believe me, you wont want to pick up a fight with her. :)

anyway, let's ignore it, imma gonna enjoy good food. so, why spoil the fun?

so the staff served us a super hot stone with two plates of sauces and chips at the side and a plate of raw meat. and i didnt take the photos ==

anyway, both of us stared at each other like what should we do next? cause we were new to this place. i mean i know i should cook the meat on the stone lah but what's with the sauces? should i dip them before i cook it or i dip them after i cook the meat? confused confused very confused.

so me and my sister just dip the raw meat in the sauce and cook it on the plate. then while cooking i panicked cause the meat stucked on the stone and i couldnt remove all of them. so i was like omgomgomgomg i dun want to waste any food. i am a good soul.

then one of the kind staff came over to help us. so it appeared to be you have to put all meat on the stone and cooked them within twenty minutes because the stone will lose its heat after that. the sauce is something you put on the stone while you are cooking so your meat wont stick on the stone. so our guess was somehow right?

my happy sister with the cooked meat

anyway, the meat is omg so freaking good! it's not just normal BBQ food you know. the meat is not only tender but it has this fragrance that is so new to me. i guess it's from the stone. i never ever try it before. the taste of the meat doesnt come from the salt. i could tell. not sure is it from sugar. really dunno how to describe cause it's like the combination of all the nice spices. i guess the sauce took a great role as well. it's tender too! omg omg i am drooling when i am typing these. ==

beef oh beef. something i will never ever eat at least for five months when i am in india

THE SAUCE!

but this meal wasnt affordable. we ordered the set meal for two, it costed us like RM52.90 without the tax and drinks. so it added up to a total of RM 60++ after the tax and everything. Don't think i will eat this again unless my dad is paying. Cause guess who pay for this meal? me.

so i will recommend this to those who are hungry and has a thick wallet or want to eat something nice.

CHEERS!

Listening to Mr Simple by Super Junior

2011-08-04T23:40:00.004+08:00

Still feeling the pain from my wounds. So people, really really don't and pluck out all four wisdom teeth. I really mean it. I am feeling very weak and i don't dare to open my mouth too wide as i can feel the stitches acting up. this is the third day and i still feel like shit. the only thing i can tell you confidently is that i am good at tolerating pain. Yesss. when my friends were helping me to clean a super big injury on my calf, i didn't shed a tear. so when i tell you it's so pain i cant really eat anything it means i reach my limits.

I have drinking liquids for all three meals. Like congee, soya milk, yoghurt and stuff. Mann i wanna eat rice cheesy wedges curry chicken fish and every single solid food. gahhhhh. So i am still pretty sad right now. andddd i have a 8 hrs camp thing on sat. I seriously wish i feel better because i really need to project my voice and everything. :((((

sob sob siew ping. It's fine i will get over it. the wounds will heal right? and one of my best frens is coming to stay in my house for like 3,4 days? WOOTS! :)

happy happy me again!

anyway, i promised to introduce some US dramas right?

SO first up.....

The Mentalist.

It talks about a guy named Patrick Jane who solves cases with his acute and powerful observational skills. he wasnt the good guy at the beginning fyi. he's a con man who pretends to be a psychic. apparently his actions pissed someone off and that person happens to be a killer. the unknown person killed his wife and daughter and he left a mark on the wall, indicating this as his work. so he was angry and determined to find this killer (they called it Red John) by being a consultant in FBI.

the FBI consultant (aka the male lead) and the cast

I must say this show blows my mind every time i watch it. the producer makes every small detail so important and vital for the male lead to solve the case. some of them are kinda far fetched for me though, i just ignore it because i think it's still very nice and convincing overall.

I will rate this show 4.5 upon 5. cuz i think it's great. :)

You should really watch this if you have the time. Something shldnt be missed. :)

Sexy Bitch by David Guetta

2011-08-02T19:13:00.003+08:00

Lesson learnt today. Never NEVER go and be so adventurous to pluck out all four wisdom teeth if you are having an average of 5 hrs sleep for three consecutive days before that.

Yes i just had my wisdom teeth plucked out in the afternoon and the anaesthetics is still working on me after 9 hrs. and now i cant feel my chin. when i touched it, it felt like a piece of meat i hanging there to pretend to be my chin. yes that's how bad it is.

and my surgery took two hrs. after that my wound bled for like two and a half hours in my mouth. i lost so much blood that when i opened my mouth slighty without knowing, the blood came out. TT_TT give back my precious blood.

Anyway, i am eating like a hell lot of medicines right now. two types antibiotics two types painkillers one for swelling and i am eating two pills for each type. i can treat these as my dinner.

yes i am not happy right now cuz not only i am swallowing my blood every now and then, i cant eat what i like, i have a face of an elephant (thanks to the swelling), i am grounded at home cuz i have an elephant face, i have a headache which i dunno why, and my body is aching maybe due to the lack of sleep.

so i will sleep now. bye bye. i really hope i can talk to anyone by the time i woke up. so i am distracted. ):

CHEERS (saying this with four more teeth less)

Hi there. I am freaking tireddddd

2011-08-02T00:04:00.002+08:00

Hello. So i slept at 4 plus this morning and woke up at 9 again so i can catch a bus to City Square. I swore i wanna welcome a lovely Monday morning, cuddling in my bed in my cushy blanket. Gosh but i woke up because i need to buy some nail polish and books.

Why I need nail polish? cuz i want to tryna paint everything on my nails before i go to somewhere i am not allowed to have anything on my nails. especially long nails. D:

Why I need books? cuz i went to harris in Jusco and i dunno why they don't have a single copy of Stephen King's books. So babooshhh. there go my book of interest. btw, i only bought like three books in Harris that day.

Pride and Prejudice/ Jane Austen

Emma/ Jane Austen

The King of Torts/ John Grisham

Didn't get Persuasion cuz i cant find it. I cant find a lot of them, felt so sad. so that's why i decided to go to Popular or MPH in CS. Hoping i can find more.

So on the bus to City Square (yes i am such a coward i dun dare to drive my car to city. but that's another whole new topic. talk about it next timeee), i read more on Pride and Prejudice. I must say i am attracted to her book when i read the first sentence on the first page.

I don't know is it her style or her good command of english that make me so obsessed with her book. I didn't stop reading her book during the trip and by the time i need to alight the bus i felt so sad that i cant continue. I really like her book. does that mean my mind still hovering in 17 century? cuz that's when she's born. i dunno. can someone tell me please?

Anyway, when i was there, my sister denied my access to all the bookstores. Sob sob TT___TT

noooooooooooo. she literally pulled me away from them when i were starting to float to that direction. D: too bad we dun have enough time. sob sob

nvm, i shall come to cs next time alone so i can camp inside the bookstore as long as i want. who's with me? :)

so i wanna sleep right now. i am so tired after walking around in the mall in high heels for the whole day and attended a meeting afterwards till 10++ pm.

Good night (just realised this is my first time greeting, i am so sorry for being so rude readers, my bad)

Cheers!

2011-07-31T00:24:00.002+08:00

okay this is a very short post. Just reread some of my entries and i saw some super gross grammar mistakes. not that i dunno but i nvr check my entry after i done typing them cuz i am too shagged for it. anyway, dont judge me with them. I have a hell lot more than the words in this blog.

Just saying. okay bye. hello glee!

Listening to Sexy Bitch by David Guetta

2011-07-30T22:59:00.004+08:00

Hello! Felt very guilty cuz i ate a lot of cakes just now cuz it's so niceeee! omgggg. okay will update the photos later, it's my baby sister's birthday. btw, i am done with J.D. Robb and now i am looking for new books in my shelf. I was reading Little women a while ago but i felt a bit boring at the beginning. so i am still searching any interesting pieces.

Going to Jusco tomorrow. Maybe i should get a list of books so i can search for them in the Harris tomorrow. yeah going to look for the review and everything. Haha... :)

But I'd something in my mind right now.

The White Queen/ Philippa Gregory

Can you keep a secret?/ Sophie Kinsella

Emma/ Jane Austen

Persuasion/ Jane Austen

Through the Looking Glass/ Lewis Carroll

Under the dome/ Stephen King

The Other Boleyn Girl/ Philippa Gregory

This is pretty much of a list right now. As for now, I will try to finish the current one. The Appeal by John grisham.

anddd i gotta watch my drama right now. totally should blog about which US drama i am watching! i think i got a thing for US drama and i am good at knowing which one of them is great! cuz i simply spent wayyyyy too much time on them. you know i have watching them like non stop since july after i quit my job?! yesssss, once i am done with one season of one of the dramas, i happily browsed through the list and picked a new one and watch them.

was very very happy back in july. watching drama nonstop, eating nice biscuits nonstop, eating my yoghurt non stop, eating my instant noodles non stop. Okay this life is great but when i saw the fats on my stomach i eventually gave up and realised this is no good for me.

But still, i am still adopting this kind of life style. SOMEBODY PLEASE KIDNAP ME AWAY FROM MY HOME SO I START LOOKING THE WORLD OUTSIDEEEEE!

CIAO!

cheers! :)

2011-07-28T22:42:00.003+08:00

I read a book and I love how the narrative describe the situation and the characters. One of the scenes I like the most is how the author describe the sex. It is not just the mere touch between the bodies. It's like the commencement of connection between two souls. It felt so beautiful. Okay I don't know much about sex but I really like this one. :)

"Softly, softly, as if tending wounds, he stroked her skin, unknotted muscles tight fro

m the day and the dream. And when she sighed, he laid his lips on her heart.

It beat for him.

In the blue wash of moonlight, she moved for him, rising up, another sigh, giving over. Giving.

Her fingers slid through his hair, glided down his back and up again. An easy rhythm even when her breath quickened and her sigh deepened to moan.

Lost in it, this quiet pleasure, she drew him closer, closer still. Body to body, mouth to mouth, thrilled with the weight of him, the shape of him. She drew in his scent like breath, and opened to take him in.

Smooth and slow and sweet, they moved together. As sensations shimmered through her like light, she cupped his face in the dark."

Maybe you felt this is very explicit but for me I felt it's something more than that. you have to read the whole story. Because before that girl was having some nightmare and the guy comforted her. Not through sex initially though. They talked and they have a consensus then they started having sex. Okay you should totally read the book to understand it. But nvm, i will just tell you in case you don't want to read the book.

For those who want to read the book it's fantasy in death by Nora Roberts, but she is writing as J.D. Robb. It's on page 208. :)

I am so glad that I finally start to read this book again. I think it's like last year December when i started on this book and now i still left one third of it. VERY VERY SLOWWWWWW. YES. I know it so i am reading it now to finish the book. and now the story seems to have another twist in it and it's making me feeling excited. Okay, shall not tell you much in case you are reading it. I dont want to have any spoilerssss. :D anyway guess it wont hope cuz i just revealed a few paragraphs of it. Nevermind, now you can see the style of the author and you can decide whether you want to read them or not. Okayyyy, i am talking crap right now. Bye bye! i wanna sleep now! :)

Cheers!

Baby Don't Cry by Daesung

2011-07-27T01:32:00.005+08:00

how do one gain confidence? is it something you inherit innately?

How do you heal the wound deeply engraved on your heart?

How do you wipe off the pain brought by the wound?

How do you let go something happened 11 years ago that totally crush your confidence?

Give me some suggestions.

And I need it now.

Listening to Man Down by Rihanna

2011-07-25T23:48:00.002+08:00

I feel very hurt when you said you rather not eating my muffins because it's not inconvenient to eat.

I feel very hurt when you always scold and scream at me, without listening to me.

I feel very hurt whenever you mentioned what happened twelve years ago that make me who I am today.

I feel very hurt when I remembered the flashback of the moment you turning your back to the nine years old me when it happened.

I feel very sad when I know I have more on the outside, only knowing I am losing more in the inside.

I feel very bad when I lied to you.

I feel worse when I know you don't really care about it anymore.

I feel worst when I know you are in love with somebody.

I feel more than worst when I know she happens to be my best friends.

I feel so devastated because I knew the truth at the very beginning but I still continue to fall for you.

I feel sad when I know there is no return for what I have done for you.

I feel sad when I realized I don't even expect any return from you because I will keep this love within me till the day I die.

I feel so stupid because I am so idiotic, thinking I might stand a chance.

I feel happy when you are around me, even though we weren't talking, it just warms my heart, knowing you are still around.

I couldn't breathe when I know you are looking at me or just a mere touch between our hands when I am passing things to you.

I feel like crying when I know I don't stand a chance.

I feel like an idiot because no matter how much I asked myself to let you go, I couldn't.

I still cried occasionally whenever I think of you.

I want to be freed because the world is so big I don't believe I can't find someone that truly love me.

I want to be freed because I know it ended before it even started.

I will free myself.

I should have done this since long ago.

Listening to Rain Over Me by Pitbull featuring Marc Anthony

2011-07-25T03:07:00.005+08:00

what does one do when she can't sleep at night? She bakes cupcakes.

I always bake something when I cant sleep. Sound so elegant and high class right? Actually it doesn't. Imagine the work you have to do if you don't have a electric whipper. Yes, i am whipping the dough with my hand. So i was hoping all these works will make me feel tired and so I can sleep better at night.

I made Chocolate Almond Cupcakes.

Does it look nice? Please tell it does. I spend like two hours doing it. I made a chocolate muffin cuz I have a lot of leftover chocolate inside my fridge. They are left untouched since months ago so i just melt all the chocolate and use them for my muffin. :)

And some chocolate sauce to put on top of it, sprinkled with some colour balls. :)

Anyway, chocolate makes me feel happy. Like every unhappy thing just "Swish!" went away. Think i gonna bring tons of chocolate with me when i go to India.

Anyway, one more month i need to say bye bye to this kind of life. Sleep at whatever time i want. Wake up at whatever time i want.

Cheers. okay maybe not so.

Listening to Party Rock Anthem by FMLAO

2011-07-24T13:43:00.003+08:00

Haha.. So i just came back from Genting and i have tons of clothing to wash. Or else i dun have much clothes to wear. i mean the decent one. YESSSS, that's how pathetic my closet is. :D

anyway i was really happy right now cuz i am able to spend time with my friends and family and everything. something i cant do when i go to india. will try to update you all on my outings really soon okay?

I was really messed up yesterday, but feeling better after telling one of my friends. someone i didn't expect to talk much about my feelings. Haha... anyway, i felt much better after i talked to him and he gave me a lot of good counselling and advice. :D

and now i envy girls who can write very well. not those kind with superb good vocab and stuff. but with more feminine element. hmmm, how should i tell you. you know there are different writing styles right? and mine is not exactly considered as style because i always talk crap. i love it when the writer is able to describe things and how they feel. something i wont never able to do. i never know words can be so gentle and comforting. yes, so i think i will try to figure how to do it and do it myself. TRY only. i dunno why the heck i wanna try this but yeah, i want to.

anyway, i can sense that i am not the same siew ping everyday. it's like i am constantly asking for something more and changing myself. which i don't know is it good or bad. but for what i know. i hate constant. but from what i heard, changing is the only constant that will never change. yeah profound and so contradicting right? the only thing that never change in this universe is the change. we are always changing.

gosh, i love my life right now. don't want to go to India. D:

Cameron Highlands

2011-07-18T13:13:00.010+08:00

So hi guys. as promised, my cameron highland trip.

At the beginning of the trip, i was very excited because i never been to Cameron highland before. But, i was totally disappointed on my first day cuz i knew it wouldnt be something i want. Maybe i wasnt fair. i was expecting genting highland or uss kind of fun before i went for it. then i totally get a punch on face realising, gosh man, cameron highland is so boring. D:

Boring for me i mean not for everyone.

BEWARE: i am going to continue with this mundane tone cuz i felt the trip is like very mundane. Sorry for this.

Like my uncle who went there thrice. (god knows how he can survive those trips. i can barely survive on the first day) the only thing that interests me is like Guardian. YESSSS, guardian. cuz there are a lot of restaurants and souvenirs shops over there. not so much excitement for teens or young adults like me. unless you are really into the quiet and peaceful surrounding, then Cameron is really your thing.

Okay enough talking, PICTURES!

One thing i need to say is that, their scenery is great! and the weather is great too. at ard 20 degree Celsius? super optimal for people who is scared of heat, like me. :D

The BOH plantation

The second thing about cameron is it's all about flowers.

Yes, Nice flowers

Pretty flowers.

Beautiful flowers

i saw they selling this mini version of oxy (the brand u use to deal with you pimple? the pimple cream? any idea? okay you are one lucky thing blessed with blemish free skin) SO CUTE RIGHTTT?

Camwhoringggg. yes i wasnt smiling much. told ya i felt it is boring.

one and only shop that fascinates me beside guardian. this cute little shop sells dessert and it's really cute! :D but the price is like urgh...

The second things about Cameron is.....

STRAWBERRY!

Yes. they have so many strawberry farms it is hard for you to choose. you can choose to pluck them yourself which will cost like around RM50 for 1kg. or you can buy 1kg at the price of RM35-40. Of course i will choose to pluck myself. omg. this is like the highlight of the trip okay!

they give you a plastic box and a line drawn on the side, indicating how much strawberry you should pluck. and dun worry if you have pluck too little, they will weight it for you and add more strawberries till it is enough. If you have plucked too much? easy peasy. just add more money according to how much you have over-weighted lo. :)

my dear strawberries

I have kept it covered inside the box too long till water droplets are formed inside the box. Dunno is it coming from strawberry or the air. but anyway, the moment you plucked it, finish the strawberry within that two days. Those ripe one wont be able to stay that long enough. i plucked two boxes but ended up throwing 80% of them after i kept it for like 3/4 days? so if intend to bring them home and kept it in the fridge (keeping inside the fridge wont help keep the strawberry fresh), pick those unripe with a slight tint of red colour. not those with freaking dark red colour.

okay this is like bullshit cuz i brought these biscuits with me to keep my stomach happy along the trip. but it's really nice! :D

This strawberry chocolate is like the best i ever had.

i tried others before from the supermarkets but it felt like they are merely adding the flavour and food colourings. this one felt so natural and it has a strawberry scent that makes you feel that you eating a strawberry with a taste of chocolate. every bite is a perfect blend of this heavenly nice fruit with cocoa. truly worth it! STRONGLY RECOMMEND!

Almost all the eateries sold these choc strawberries. For me, they are like just normal stuff. i can melt the chocolate myself and dip them with strawberries i bought from econsave. so PASS!

SO NICE RIGHT! :D (omg my skin is so dry!)

I went to the botanical garden. (like all flowers)

and Tea garden (the tea garden smells nice!)

the cactus garden (all cactus, one of them looks like medusa hair. i swear. i will post up a photo to show it how similiar it is, feel so sick!)

At night, Cameron highland has a night market or pasar malam. not sure it is open till what time but it started from 6 if i a not wrong.

Most of the stalls sells kuihs, or strawberries coated with chocolate, strawberry headphones, clothes and souvenirs. you will be fascinated for the first few stalls but then you get tired of it cuz the rest of the stalls sell the same things. so you get bored and you start munching food with your mouth.

i forget what this is but i guess it's some kind of vegetables cut in pieces ready for sale?

Other than strawberry chocolate, their corn is something you really need to try. IT IS A MUST TRY! unlike the corns i am having right now, theirs have super big kernels with freaking sweet juice. seriously! DAMN YES! if you ask me what i regret for in this trip is that i should have buy more of these to bring back home. YES THEY ARE THAT NICE FOR YOU NOT TO MISS!

you can even eat the raw. i tried the raw version, it's like eating fruits. but if you are not comfortable with it, like my dad who's saying it's not hygiene or other concerns etc etc, i suggest you to barbecue it or cook it in boiling water. but i personally think BBQ is the best way to retain its sweetness and juice.

Pumpkin balls! (the golden one, the purple i remember it is yam)

to my surprise, they are fluffy and sweet. goes perfectly well after eating the slightly salted BBQ corn.

i have heard of pisang goreng. or sweet potatoes. but they even fried vegetable. i have no idea it can be done. but i nvr tried it though. had been savouring myself with fried food too much. i scare later mr pimple will come to me.

the next day, i went to hot spring in melaka.

They have signs showing each pool contains hot spring at what temperature, which i think is really nice. and it turns out the max temp i can stand is 35 degree Celsius. much lower than i thought i can stand. :P

nice pair of legs. pity it's not mine. D:

The hot spring look so nice rightttt?

CAMWHORE FIRST!

WAIT! dun be so happy first! after that there is a lady coming to us, ushering us out (this is a more delicate way to say chasing us out). WHY? cuz this is a private hotspring area. and you have to book for it. funny right? my dear tourguide just brought us around and nvr knew there are such places. HAHA.

so this is the public one. not so bad lah. Haha... very nice too.

Anyway, i took a lot of pictures actually. but i wont put up all of them cuz the photo uploader from blogger sucks much seriously. i am still using the old version one. dunno why they wont update the old one automatically. and now i dun even can i update this feature or i am stuck with this forever. D:

ANYWAY, CHEERS!

going to genting on wed so not gonna blog soon till saturday. miss me ya!

LOVE YA! :D

oh btw!

2011-07-15T21:50:00.002+08:00

I updated my profile. actually with some pictures only. just drop by in case you are curious. :D

Driving is such a bitch

2011-07-15T08:00:00.005+08:00

Hellooooo! GOOD MORNING! This is siew ping shouting from the other end with a heavy head. she woke up early today cuz she has a meeting with her ex boss that supposed to be yesterday. it was cancelled cuz my ex boss was feeling unwell.

anyway, seriously i abhor (learn that word from lingjie!) the idea of driving. if i got someone who can fetch me everyday, i will ask him/her to do so cuz i am really scare of driving omg! the idea of sharing the road with other 100+ steel and iron components make me panic.

anyway, i hate driving and i dun like driving. but i dun like public transport too. funny right? meh. so when i am rich i will get someone to drive my car everyday. like my private driver. but that will only happen IF i am rich. yup. so forget about it right now cuz i just quit my job and i am BROKEEEEE! GAHHHHH. okayyy.

is it possible to have such cute guys jogging in front of my house? okay let's hope he will appear. not necessary in that form. :)

btw, i wanna talk about my cameron highland trip. just thought of doing an entry on it in case i forget how's the trip. :)

So, look forward to it okay?

Some readers: WHY SHOULD I EVEN LOOK FORWARD TO IT? IT'S LIKE I CAN GO THERE MYSELF TOO WHY SHOULD I EVEN LOOK AT YOUR ENTRY?

Me: Cuz i want you to know how i felt about the trip, from my perspective. okay. if you dun wanna read then nvm. Haha... I am okay with it. It's not like my living is depending on this tiny blog of mine. :)

Guys

2011-07-14T09:24:00.003+08:00

Hi guyssss! So how are you doing today? I am going out later to get a facial and have a meeting with my ex boss to discuss about my unfinished work. LOLLL yessss which means i get to see little kids again! SUPER DUPER EGGCITED! :D

Anyway, remember in one of my entries me saying not emotionally ready for a boyfriend?

In case you need to refresh your memory, here is the link! http://chloe-tay.blogspot.com/2011_07_08_archive.html

anyway, after a few days later, which is like right now. i am okay with it. like i am mentally prepared to have a boyfriend. like so what the hell right? SOFASTTT? you said.

hey i am a girl and so i am sentimental and so you cant judge me with logical thinking. okay no. just ignore me. but i am totally cool with it right now. actually i am totally cool with having a boyfriend all along the time but i was going through a tough day that day and it made me so depressed that i dun want to have any guy in my life at all.

but still scared of the potential hurt and damages it could bring to me because girls build up their feelings based on love. but some guys build up their feelings based on skinship and/or sex. yeah. that's pretty true. i have boyfriends who literally told me straight into my face that boys/guys look at your face first then shift their attention to your body shape. quite depressing right but nah, it's their way. as if we girls dun do that at all. but only at a minimal level. i mean for me lah at least.

so this is like totally upsetting my mind and now i wanna watch a drama that involves gay love. it's totally cute and i am getting addicted to their intimate scenes like kissing and stuff HAHA....

maybe i will just show you how does it look like. not sure what's it called in english but in chinese it is 世界第一初恋. but if you not comfortable with gay love, then u might just stop at the first epiode, like what my sister did. xDDD

their (almost!) kissing scene.

yes, if you are going to have a heart attack alr, then better dun watch.

i realised there are still a lot of people cant embrace gays and lesbians which make me feel sad. but nvm, i shall talk about these in other post. or else the entry will look so disjointed. :)

CHEERS!

Listening to Hands up by 2PM

2011-07-13T11:07:00.003+08:00

Hi guys. Going out in a while to buy my lunch and my sister contact lenses and etc. Think i getting a toner too LOL lets see.

Anyway, the past few days i am a total slackers cuz i do nothing than eat, sleep and watch drama/ anime/ manga. TOTALLY INEFFICIENT. i should start cleaning up my shelves and books and all my a level notes. but i love the way i live right now... dun wanna change. D:

yesssss, the purpose of giving myself a two months break before i start my uni life is cuz i want to clean up all the mess i brought from singapore but i never really touch it since i came back to malaysia. what can i say. being a kindergarten teacher is a lot tiring than i thought it would be and i almost wanna crash on my sofa in the living room the moment i reach home. xDDDD

okay, then need to change my outfit and stuff. so bye bye. :D oh man i am super duper hungry.

CHEERS!

Affinity

2011-07-10T23:30:00.003+08:00

do you ever have this feeling like, "hey I think we can try knowing each other more and see do we get along with each other."

do you feel this often?

Or I am the one who is too naive to think this way?

Yeah maybe i am too naive.

But Having somebody to be able to listen to what you wanna say. it's very rare.

I want a listener.

like seriously.

CHEERS!

(and no i am not being emo or anything. just thinking about this)

and PS: I havent started on the cameron highland at all!

Dont look now by Far East Movement

2011-07-09T18:18:00.005+08:00

PS: I was supposed to post this like yesterday but i dunno why it's inside the draft. So just dial the time back to yesterday and read my post okayyyy. :D

__________________________________________________________________

Hi guyssss. yes i am blogging frequently which means i am very freeeeee. LOL isn't it a good thing?

But it is totally NOT! cuz i have eating a lot of things for the past few hours and i seriously regret for it. WHY? you asked. Cuz after eating waffles, char siew buns, mushroom soups, instant noodles and lots of macaronis with cheese, my mum just told we are going to someone's house to eat buffet for their house warming. On one side, yes i am not free and have something to do finally. but the other side, BUFFET OMGGGG! it's the sin of every inch of my fat on my body. okay, i am being unfair. it's because of my non-stop mouth actually. LOL. anyway, how could i resist the goodness of chicken curry, golden crisp chicken wing and all the other good stuff? ARGHHHH, screw diet. just eat everything later and then i see how again. seeeee..... see why i always fail to lose weight????

anyway, tomorrow i gonna meet up with sean and chuan yang. omggg, didnt meet them for ages and finally we are meeting again before we going to uni. okay lah, only me and chuanyang. sean is such a freaking smart ass who gotten himself a scholarship in NUS. Haha... wish him all the best in NUS and prove them MALAYSIAN BOLEH! :D feel proud for him though

we are going to have lunch first and then catch the movie Transformer 3. YESSSSSSSS, you are right. I HAVENT WATCH IT. FUNNY RIGHTTT? go ahead and laugh lollll.

but i guess we wont meet up after tml in anytime soon cuz chuanyang is going to UK and me going to india and sean in singapore. like all three in three different continents. okay maybe not continents i dunno i score badly for geography but in different countries. D:

gonna miss them so much. hope tml gonna be fine!

CHEERS

2011-07-08T20:27:00.003+08:00

Hi there. Turns out i cant sleep yet cuz i need to wait for my dad to come back to ask him sth. he's gonna be home in like as hour time? Not sure. bt my head is like almost splitting and it feels so heavy. is it a sign of having fever or sth? oh goshhhhh, i dunno, totally hate this! D:

Please make me stay conscious for the next one hour so i can pop the question to my dad. nothing big. just need to ask his permission before i go out to somewhere far. Ah mannnn, btw he thinks that i have a boyfriend and sth. that's why i am going out so frequently. LOLLLL if only i am so popular HAHA... and he told me if i reli have one must bring him home to let him take a look. xDDDD

But nahhhh, i dun have one. like seriously nobody wants me xDDDD anyway, need to get used to need it cuz my dad is worrying about me being cheated by some bad guys and everything. but sometimes not only bad guys can hurt you right? your friends or your crush can also hurt you and make u feel the pain. You dun even feel happiness yet you are already feeling hurt and pain before a relationship starts. which is pathetic. i saw what happened to my friends and sister. It seems to me that if you never handle a relationship properly, you will always end up hurting. even if u handle it properly, you will still end up hurting because maybe ur bf/gf isnt that loyal to you.

Yes, i am the kind of girl who cant stand if my boy flirts with other girls. cuz to me, once u are in a relationship, it's like stamping a label on your boy saying, "hey he's mine. back off." and vice versa.

okay why am i even talking about this? totally side track but nvm. all i wanna say is that, the reason why i am still single is partly due to me myself. i am not ready and i dun think i wanna get into it. i still wanna be a happy little girl and being oblivious about all these adults love-hate relationship. they are so complicated and it's so hard for me to understand. if u like somebody u will wanna spend your time with him/her right? why u still wanna cheat and flirt with others? feel so weird. u might as well dun get a bf/gf cuz they will restrict you in every occasion and area. agree? okay maybe you dun cuz u think i am still a child and dun understand about love. yeah whatever. LOVEEEEEEE.

i only care about my family and my boyfriends and my girlfriends right now. Relationship is not my thing yet. :D but i still enjoy looking through photos of cute guys. Haha... like why not right? it's not like they are porn or everything. xDDDD

I am back! (like super duper late!)

2011-07-08T19:13:00.003+08:00

Yeah actually i was back since sunday but went to my uncle's funeral for the past few days. wasn't reli free and emotionally ready for a entry. In fact i am not going to put up a long post today. maybe later. not now. Sorry my dear.

But i will be very nice to put up a photo to show you a nice view from the plane.

I tell you, seeing these sights from photos are very very different from seeing it yourself from the plane. and i was very lucky having seat just beside the plane window (is that how you call it? okay lah i dunno and i dun really care what does it call right now) and the sun is not directly shining on my side. Haha... LUCKY MEEEE! :D

But dunno is it the flight or my own problem. The following day i touched down, i had a fever which is super sucksssss. D:

Btw, lesson of the trip, dun book a flight at night or evening because you will totally miss out the fun of seeing all the these things i am gonna show you in the next post. but i will only put up one first. :D cuz i am incredibly tired. after dealing with fever, i am dealing with flu right now. D:

Okay bye CHEERS! :D

i will remember you and love you as far as possible

2011-07-01T00:14:00.003+08:00

They look so nice. And i ate a lot of chocolate today what the hell. cuz feeling so sad after bidding goodbyes to my kids. and i was right. i cried today. TWICE!

not the cry out loud kind. but the quietly sobbing (okay wth what's with the sobbing, as if i am the pathetic role leader of some korean drama or sth) but seriously cant hold on to my tears. they just keep rushing out and i cant do anything about it. my kids saw me tearing and all of them kept quiet immediately and kept looking at me as they walked out of the classroom. like the last goodbye or sth. still have a wee bit of tears when i am writing these. oh man. i am so sentimental! just admit that myself. gahhhh.... hmmm, took photos with almost everyone of them and felt happy with it. but still feel sad overall. hmmm, guess it will be over soon. time heals a lot of things. plus this is not exactly a wound too. like a short tinkling pain. sth like that. anyway, accept the fact alr and will try to move on.

i dunno why people used to say kids are amazing in their own ways. now i know what they mean right now. kids are sincere with what they say. they truly mean it. that's why it's so hard to get them go. knowing how much they love you and wont bear to let you. gonna miss them a lot.

anyway, blog about something happy. hopefully make me feel happy. Haha.... my trip to kota kinabalu. mark the start of my first flight! OMG! can you believe this!? TAY SIEW PING IS GOING TO FLY IN AN AEROPLANE TML! Haha, yeah, hopefully it will take my mind off from the current stuff. :D

anyway, been eating a lot of vegetables, it reli help in bowel movements! LOVE IT SO MUCH! Not the bowel movement part, but how it helps me feeling better. :D

I dun wanna be a pancake person

2011-06-29T23:47:00.003+08:00

Dunno what's wrong with blogger. but cant upload photos. Whatever, wasn't going to uploading anything anyway.

So tomorrow will be my last day teaching in school. I am like happy and sad at the same time because i would have more time for myself to do what i need to do and wanna do. But i was pretty sad that i need to leave the school and cant see all my kids right now.

now i know i am not the material who can go around and have connections with lots of people without any tears and pain. Cuz i seriously feel very sad leaving them for India.

Is it true if you have a lot of friends, you cant have a deep connection and understanding with them? cuz there's a limit how much you can spread. I once read an article about the pancake relationship of human in internet. You can have a lot of friends but you wont know them much. Like Pancake, you can spread very wide, yet very thin.

I seriously love them very much and i can remember all my kids' faces and how they smile and how they cry. and those are what i fear i will forget in the future. the scariest thing is like when they grow up, and i bumped into them. and all i remember are like their names. "oh that's Leong Jia Jun." but i forget how he used to run around and get lectures from me with a very guilty face. i fear that i forget how happy he was when i kissed his face. i fear that i forget how good he can be when he was delegated with jobs and duties. I fear that i forget he is such a nice big brother to those 3 yrs old kids. i fear that i forget how shy he was when he said, "I love you teacher tay". these are all precious memories to me. I guess they are very precious to me because i taught them for six whole months and i taught some of them from scratches. Like from knowing nothing to knowing ABC and even saying "sit properly". So i feel so empty cuz i am going to leave everything behind. they are practically my life right now.

Kids are amazing. in ways like making you feeling that you are very important in their life. They do everything to make you focus on them. be it good or bad. it's the way they express themselves. I am so scared i will forget them and vice versa. it's like so sad. omg, so i am going to take a photo with every single of them tomorrow. Like seriously, love them from then bottom of my heart.

I was crying when bidding goodbyes to my classmates last year. I hope this wont happen tomorrow. and i pray not to. seriously. sometimes i think i am super weak emotionally and not brave at all. not saying i shouldnt feel sad or anything. but i just cant hold on my tears. sth i hate so much.

I suck at bidding goodbyes. like seriously.

and i am trying to thinking stuff that makes me happy like i going on trip in july and perhaps in august. but seriously think the sad portion are too strong. and i dunno lah. I think the kids misses me but i think they will forget me very fast. like just remembering my face only but totally forget my name. so can i paste a super big photo of me in front of the kindergarten please?

okay that's so stupid. ignore me.

seriously. very. sad.

okay. going to check my camera and make sure it's like fully charged! so i can snap lots of photos tomorrow! :D

Sorry peeps!

2011-06-23T22:55:00.003+08:00

hi people. i love you.

currently busy with life and my work. no time for blogs yet. wait for a while please. D:

CHEERS!

HI PEEPS!

2011-06-02T23:59:00.008+08:00

HI ALL! DO YOU MISS ME?

Okay i sound super hysterical in my first sentence. Let me do it the girly and feminine way.

Hi. I feel so boring. (my eyes wide open and act cute)

It's been a while since I updated my blog ya? Haha... Cuz I

am busy preparing my Uni and it's really a lot of things to do, especially if you are a foreigner. It means MORE paperwork. I wanna be environmentally friendly. Is it possible? Okay, ignore me. it's just a convenient excuse for my laziness. Do you watch Naruto, if you were my old reader, you would know i am a hardcore fan for NARUTO. and i think i am kinda like Shikamaru. the only difference is that i am a dumbass and he is a freaking genius with IQ off the chart. Haha....

This is a photo of Shikamaru if you wonder who he is. :D

He is one of my favourites in Naruto too! :D

Okay, back to the story. I will just update about my life ya! :)

So in one of the weekends in April, I met up with Yong Bang in City Square.

We were having our lunch at Kenny Rogers Roasters. I've always wanted to try their food and Finally i got the chance to do so! :D

I think it's really nice to have your tissue paper or other accessories in your restaurant/shop to be customised. It gave me a personal touch and I felt more secured cuz it looks more professional. :D

At first i thought it is gonna be freaking expensive but to my surprise, they are not. I think it's like RM10.90 for a set meal, without drink. But they include

1/4 chicken (you can choose original sauce or Black pepper sauce)

3 side dishes (they have A LOT of side dished i tell ya, freaking worth it!)

and a cupcake (vanila/chocolate/ banana)

Not bad right??? Yeah, it really is.

Our vanilla cupcake!

My Set Meal: With Mashed Potatoes, Fruit Salad and Garden Salad (cant remember that last one haha)

But i prefer my mashed potatoes with more sauces. so i dun reli like their mashed potatoes. too little sauce for me!

Yong Bang's!

He ordered a fried rice instead. i think cuz it's more filling. But trust me, for girls, my choice is really very filling. By the way, Yong Bang said he wanna used up all his Malaysia currency so he treated me. MUAHAHAHAHA. Seeee, i ate a free meal. MUAHAHA...

okay stop it. Cheapo SIEW PING!

Then we went to eat ice-cream from BASKIN ROBINS!

YongBang's treat AGAIN!

So free ice-cream for me again! :D

He chose lime ice-cream and added chocolate fudge in a waffle cone!

At first i thought their waffle cone are those small and petite cup. but turned out i was wrong.

It was this big!

Siao! I dun think i can finish one by myself. You know i hardly ate this. He is the one who ate most of it. SIAO DE LO! Who can eat so much after having lunch?

Yeah we went straight to BR after our lunch. Funny right? shldn't do that next time!

Then dear yongbang treated me STARBUCKS AGAIN! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA

i lucky or not you tell me! :DDDDDD

Okay, cannot laugh so wild. but cover my mouth and smile only. :)

No! Yong Bang is Mr Wong, But when the staff asked, he nvr thought of saying of Mr Wong, he said yongbang instead. So Mr yong it is. Haha.... the difference between Singapore and Malaysia!

I had Iced Chocolate with Whipped Cream and Yongbang had Iced Latte with Whipped Cream.

I totally LOVE their whipped cream because it tasted so light yet it has a strong smell. :D

So final photo! Me and Yongbang! :D

Catch a movie!

Finally watched a movie after four months and i am telling you the feeling sucks. i have been dying to watch a movie like long time ago and i got to watch it now. Okay i forgot what i watched cuz it's like long time ago.

But the point is, I watched a movie.

Okay I am so lame.

Buying Movie tickets! Haha... Happy much! :D

Yongbang and I

Yiqi and I (gosh miss my girlfriend!)

Me and Guangjin!

Me and Lingjie! (my bitchy friend aka my sister)

miss him a lot too! D:

Yiqi and me again! HAHAHAHA

Me and Jiansheng! :D

Our Group Photos! :D

So freaking happy cuz i got to see Yiqi and the rest. Never miss them so much in my life before. D: okay must be happy in my ending. so...

CHEERS! :D

Finally, UPDATES!

2011-05-15T00:33:00.006+08:00

So HI!

It's been a while since i update about my life right? Haha... okayyy. i shall update more on my stayover at Liling's house the day we celebrated her birthday. :D

Liling is a very nice girl i met during my JC life in IJC. No she is not my classmate. We even took different combi! but i can tell that she is very nice when i talked with her or things like she is very helpful and etc. i was kinda surprised she invited me to her birthday party. not that i dun wanna go, i definitely would love it. it's just that i thought we are just friends and so maybe i wont get the invitation and sth. obviously i think too much! :DDD

Linette's staying over too but you look at the amount of things she carried with her compared to mine. She carried three bags actually. the other one was at the other side of her body so you couldnt see it.

Anyway, we took some photos during the BBQ haha...

Javiel and ME!

Liting and ME! (btw, lekhan behind us)

Liling's secondary schoolmates and ME!

the whole thing ended around at 11 plus i guess then we packed up and brought everything upstairs haha. besides liling's parents, all the teens just sat in the living room, watching TV or doing their nail polish till 1 plus in the morning. then we all went to bed. yeah i know it's damn early but i am tired lah. hehe

And then we woke up early (not so early actually, like around 9 LOL) to take some photos. I tell ya Liling is using those CANON FREAKING BIG ASS DSLR. My Lumix DMC FS3 is like nothing compared to it. D:

Damn Professional sehhh. i wanted one for myself too but i dun reli know how to use it. and honestly i dun reli care haha... camera is like unsolved math questions for me. so haha... i will pass it to someone who reli likes it. :D

You see she even has one of those control (it's in her hand!) that snap photos. omggg. damn professional. you can just sit where you want but not too far and snap photos without worrying for the distance.

Liling was saying maybe we made some sequential shots. BUT i thought we are going to snap some photos first. and our first sequential shots became a joke because of me.

yeah, i only realised it was a sequential shot halfway and totally couldnt stop laughing. Dumb rightttt? Haha.. still wanna laugh right now even though it's been so long.

Btw, caught this when liling is uploading our photos to Facebook.

OMGGGG Her desktop is effing clean! (only three folders can be observed, neat TTM)

then we went to causeway point for lunch. and that's where i met some of my council mates. :D

JIANSHENG and me!

ME, YEE LIANG AND LINGJIE

ME, JIANSHENG, YONGBANG (yb look stupid haha)

There is one more with Guangjin but i dint put it up here because it is very troublesome to rearrange the photos (i rearranged three times for this particular post alr, always more than three for other posts!). i seriously miss them like hell because we used to meet up every week for CCA and then we went for dinner late at night. all these seems like yesterday! goshhh, two years is reli too short for JC. i miss my frens!

But i totally miss my bitch MR CHENG LING JIE who entered NS finally! Thought he is gonna complain with all the exercises and tekan sessions but it turned out to be fine for him. haha....

So, here a pic of me with him! :D

Haha... okay, gotta ciao. i need to wake up early in the morning tomorrow. :D

CHEERS!

hiya

2011-05-10T22:01:00.002+08:00

so it's the month of may and it's like the exam periods for me. cuz my tuition kids are having exams and it kinda stress me too? haha... and school is getting better for me. oh yeah i never mention about what i went thru in my kindergarten right? actually it's just i am quite a noob in the beginning and didn't know how things work. plus i am not very meticulous and it causes some problems here and there and it reli suckssss. haha... anyway, entering May, i can say i am pretty good with what i am doing now. carrying out my duty and interacting with the students haha. think i am gonna miss my students and colleagues when i leave there. D:

anyway, no more emo post today and haha. i am going to watch more movies and dramas hehe. so bye bye. btw, i am back to facebook game again. nice games to play so i wont feel so boring! :D

moving on

2011-05-07T08:28:00.004+08:00

i thought i move on but i just realized i never did. after viewing all my past photos, i felt something. something bitter. not totally bitter because i had great memory with the rest. but you, you are like the only black spot on my white shirt. irritating much as i couldn't wipe it off.

true, if i were you, back then, i would not be interested in me too. so fugly. like what the hell. and it's not as if i have this super nice characteristic like a Samaritan.

i thought i move on but i didn't. the only thing i know is that things do get better now.

Baby dont cry by Daesung (Big Bang)

I wish for better now.

end it the siew ping's way.

CHEERS! :D

Source code is nice! :D

2011-05-02T11:57:00.004+08:00

whoaaa. it's been a really long time since i posted something on my blog. never realise time flies so fast.

okay... anyway, just watch the movie source code and did a few things with my frens. gonna upload the pictures once my friend uploaded it. cuz my camera sucks and the quality sucks too. so yeahhh.

be patience ya! :D

CHEERS!

Hi this is the real entry haha

2011-04-10T02:15:00.003+08:00

okay ignore the one below because i posted that to try the new app from blogger. okay. it does help in posting entry, become more faster with just one click. but it is no help for photos. hope they will do something with it! :(

Anyway poly application is so rush and mess up gahhhhhh. dunno why is the release of spm result is so freaking late this year!!! D:

okay just downloaded a lot of dramas so i wont be bored at night when i wanna watch something. the tv shows in channel 8 doesn't suit my taste. i prefer US dramas!

i love this show a lot! it's one of my favourite!

the big bang theory!

yeah smart is the new sexy. HAHA....

nah. not really. okay the whole story basically revolved around this guy named Sheldon Cooper because he is such a super geek whose IQ is off the chart but ZERO EQ. So the whole drama shows how funny and ridiculous he can be because he knows nothing about interactions with other people.

tadah! this is the famous Mr Cooper! he is very funny sometimes. cant take it. HAHA

Raj is actually quite handsome, but the show make him look kinda normal and ugly. guess it's the clothing and stuff

all the main casts!

okay, this show is like damn funny and hilarious. you all should really watch it! it's air till season four already, so there's like 60++ episodes. I WANT MORE PLEASEEEE!

Okay. it's 234 in the morning. i feel like sleeping.BYE BYE

CHEERS

tryout

2011-04-10T02:12:00.000+08:00

hello blog

PICTURESSSS

2011-03-28T02:30:00.002+08:00

Finally i get the hang of uploading photos in blogger. but it still sucks. i want my window live writer back! So applying uni is like suffocating me because i dun like writing essays and writing essays is what they want in uni. greatttttt. my first step to hell.

anyway, i am supposed to update i had done in the past few weeks. i realised the lack of photos in my blog make it very DULL!

so here you go.. pictures! not much though. the photo uploading tool in blogger is not that handy. D:

So before CNY, serene and the gang came to JB so we could meet up and we did!

serene and me!

yeeliang, junhong and xx

lingjie, yongbang and guangjin

we were having lunch at season and catching up with each other. goshhhh i miss those time when we were having our lunch and we could stay for more than an hour to talk all kind of stuff! i love cheese like mad so i just order anything that come with baked cheese! and i ordered this.

baked cheese with pork chop. ewwwww. not nice. the pork chop doesn't go well with cheese. dun order it next time if you have a chance to eat in season.

serene ordered this. seafood rice with baked cheese

i tell you, this is freaking niceeeeee! the cheese smelll super gooodd and everyone took a scoop from serene HAHAHAHA. there's eight or nine people i think you do the maths. so there's not much left for her. LOL

after this, we went around shopping in INNER CITY. then went to neway! this is my first time entering NEWAY, yeah cant believe me right???? in my past 19 years i never even heard of NEWAY. okay maybe you cant blame me because they are not famous? okay lah, enough with all the craps and excuses. We went to sing Karaoke for like three hours and everyone only needs to 28 ringgits, with one free snack and one free set meals and two free drinks! it's a great deal ehhhhh! omg. it's so cheap and the food there is not quite bad although it's cheap! anyway, we celebrated the feb babies birthday (which includes me!).

feb babies!

taking photo or cutting the cake??? i dunno hahahahah

finally! our group pic! :D

seriously i love my council mates. so sad some of them went to ns and some are working and i am in malaysiaaaa! we cant meet up at all! D: but, there's still such a long way to go in my life, i believe the time will come! :D

let's move on!

now it's about CNY celebration!

yusheng

Group pic with the cousins actually still missing a lot of cousins (We are close to each other because we are the young ones, still unmarried and still see each other on a regular basis)

We went to restaurant for Lunch. I have a very big family. Five uncles and five aunts from my mother side. Yeah one thing good about it is that our house is very merry during festivals, the bad thing about it is that you will forget how to address them when you see them (there's so many of them and you don't really meet them everyday!). I always mouth to my mum, "who is she/ he?" everytime someone familiar approaches us. yeahhhhh. i really mouth the words to my mum... like drama horrrrr.

yongbang playing fireworks during his stayover at my house.

we were lighting up the "kongming" deng! first time!

Yongbang is like the only one came to my house HAHA. cuz i invited them on the third day of CNY. only yongbang can make it. yeah like so stupid righttttt? laugh and mock me all you want. i know it is!

have a few friends from my sec and primary school!

Top row: Zephyr and Jun Boon

Bottom row: Tak Choi, ME!, Jiajun and Eric

Zephyr was my primary classmate and guess what! we had only been in the same class when we are in grade two. but he remembered me! and he said, you really changed a lot. he was insinuating the change in my size because i was very very tiny and thin when i am in primary school.

Then you asked, "what happened to you now?"

I answered, "the results of having late dinner and fast food and the lack of exercise in the last three months for A level."

Gahhhh, okay i sidetracked! go back to CNY!

family picture!

Now it's time about me staying over at wanteng's house! so i meet her at six pm actually cuz she was working. i met up with lingjie first at woodlands and then we gathered at sembawang for dinner!

we ate like a lot of stuff eh. we ordered six fried dumpling, a wanton mee, a fried rice with parsley, a baked cheese rice with porkchop (it's mine!), fried chicken and i cant remember anymore. no photos were taken! felt so sad looooo! should have taken some photos during the dinner! geeeeezzzzz nvm!

afterwards, we headed towards to wanteng's house for a champagne tasting. Haha... sound so high class righttt? like those wine testing righttt? okay, ignore me for being lame.

she bought that champagne from australia and it's really nice! the taste were a bit sweet, which is my taste. it tasted like the sweetened version of carlsberg. i quite like it! :D

lingjie!

wanteng! (totally not ready for the shot)

me with the champagne!

before drinking, we were playing with wanteng's hamster! hamster is really very small and could run very fast. at first i dun really dare to hold it because i scared it will bite me or sth. but wanteng said you dun get that often so dun worry. but i scared this would be those not so often moments, you get what i mean? anyway, i still went for it. i dun really get to hold hamsters that often. so why not?

this is like the only success attempt on taking photo with the hamster. see how i hold it? i scared he bit me or something. i kept switching my position to hold it and it wasn't comfortable with it so i kept moving too because i really scared he bit me. so both of us kept moving, the photoshooting failed after multiple attempts.

the next day, cuz wanteng needed to leave early for her job, so i met up with yongbang at ten for breakfast. then we went to vivo because i never really shop at vivo. last time although i did went with charrisa and ker ker, we walked like super fast because we are heading to sentosa. we only stopped for pet shop and daiso. so i decided to go there again to refresh my memory. i like walking around the building and understand the architecture. i think it's great!

anyway, we stop at Carls Jr. for a late lunch.

i snapped a photo of yongbang when he never realised this!

we had to share the same cup of drinks (my cup of iced green tea!) because he filled up his cup with ice tea. ice tea is the chinese tea mixed with ice. yuckkksss. so cold and tasteless! tried it myself i wanna puke omg. then i asked why are you not taking the usual green tea you always get? he said, "i wanna try new things." seeeee, that's what you get for being greedy. haha... okay i shldn't say that because i was very happy when i got a donut during the open house of nanyang poly. HAHA

our waiting number.

so while we are waiting, we looked around and see what can we play with and TADAH!

the feedback form for their service! (the star is cute! :D)

yongbang wrote there they should distinguish the iced tea from iced green tea by making the difference more distinct. i was thinking the missing word "green" tells you a lot. HAHA. anyway, i just let him wrote that and took photo of stuffs around me!

their tissue box!

FINALLLYYYY!

TADAHHH!

our meal is here!

it is called the couple meal. the portion are real big i tell you! both of us shared the burger and i couldnt finish. this is surprising because yongbang couldnt finish too (he has a big appetite!). but their fries (the lighter colour) is damn nice! there's a lot of flesh and they dun use much spices except salt. i like it because that's how i can get the taste of the potatoes! compared with Long John Silver's fries, i think prefer this! but their onion ring (the darker one) is a bit too strong for me, i mean the taste. after eating it, i need to eat or drink something else to neutralise the taste.

so that's it. after this, i went to malaysia and started my teaching life. :D (sound as if this is my biography LOL)

in march, i had a steamboat with all the teachers in the kindergarten i am working at. it's super worth i tell you. 20 ringgit you can eat all the stuff you want. it's like seoul garden except you get more stuff and it's in a open house. Haha. plus if you put too much butter right, the oil/ water from the meat will attack. luckily i wore long sleeves. MUAHAHAHAHA

teacher foo

teacher chin

teacher liau on your left and teacher mary on your right!

Teacher wong

and this was a photo taken long time ago before i even started working. i sang karaoke with cindy, pangpang, and yipin! they were part of my best friends in sec school! nice catching up with them! :D

so this is the end, i spent like one hour on this. i nidda wake up in 2 hours time. wish me luck.

i wanna watch GLEE!

2011-03-19T03:05:00.002+08:00

Going to apply for Uni right now. I am so scared if I cant get into the course I want. I dun wanna live my life with a degree I dun wanna do. I feel my life is wasted. Anyway, life is so busy with kindergarten, tuitions, guitars and app to Uni. I am so busy I cant breathe right now. Imagine I actually thought of giving tuitions to secondary school kids in my own house. It’s gonna be ultra busy, like wth. I dunno what the hell happened to me cuz I actually dun wanna be so busy right now. Maybe I work at least 11 hours everyday in the kindergarten every day? Maybe. Perhaps I promised myself I need to fork out at least one hour everyday to practice my guitar every day which I never did due to time constraint or purely due to my poor time management, and I feel guilty for it? Yeah, it might be. Or maybe uni app only left like less than two weeks, and I am not done with any of the university app??? Yeah, ANYYYYY! wth right. So much things and siewping’s brain can only function that much. Thank you brain. I am so sorry to always make me do OT. I will pay you extra by drinking more water and vitagens.

And I am now like VITAGENS ADDICT! Ii need them on a daily basis to prevent constipation. Oh gosh, this is embarassingggg! Why am I doing this?? I wont get any bf with this. I should be doing, “ whoa I am getting slimmer and slimmer!” and post up a make up photo of me acting cute. Well that’s aint happening right now. I need sleep but let me finish watching GLEE.

Bye bye.

Exclusive photos (not up in my Facebook yet):

The supposing act cute photo. but i look like i wanna kill someone with that weird smile

okay, here comes the stupid poses. i asked the kids to give ugly pose and they are very co-operate. HAHA

the next ugly pose done by Miss Tay and a bunch of primary school kids hehe

Kids are fun if you KNOW how to deal with them. but they are still very nice and cute. that counts a lot.

is this the only entry with photos recently? BLAME IT ON THE B-B-B-B-BLOGGER.com

2011-03-12T00:56:00.000+08:00

What’s next after A level?

A level is like so easy right now. All I got to do is just mug mug and mug. Nothing but just pure mugging. Now I gotta figure what I wanna be in my next forty years, assuming I am gonna die when I am 60. So, BIG decision. So freaking scared. Goshhhh

And you know what scared me the most? Is that it seems like everyone is writing essays or something. I am so terrified because I have nothing to do. This is so damn weird! D:

GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Okay lah whatever, I am going for the open house in 11 hours. Going to Sg in 7 hours. Hopefully I can get into the course I want! Wish me luck!

By the way, thanks to all my teachers who taught me in my past two years in IJC, they are:

TADAH!

Maths and Civics Tutor: MR LIN FURONG
General Paper: MR PAUL CHOW
Chemistry: MDM TAN MEI MEI
Biology: MDM MADGELINE OH
Econs: MR CHUA YEOW HWEE
Project Work: MS MARGERET NG
Chinese: MS WANG MIN

These teachers gave me all the supports and consultations I need to enhance my understanding for the subjects. They are really great! And you know what, two out of these seven teachers are MALAYSIANS! HAHA, like Mr Chow, he always said this to me: “ MALAYSIA BOLEH!!!” he was very happy when I told him my GP results over the phone. :D (he’s in the middle of the meeting btw oh my gosh feel so paisehhhhh)

CHEERS!!!

2011-02-28T00:44:00.001+08:00

Sometimes having too much free time isn’t a good thing. I will think too much and now…… GREAT! I am having insomnia again! So I am practicing my guitar. I really want to get out of Malaysia and go somewhere else to travel and play for a while. Just tired of thinking how should everything works around me and I think my mind is sorta worn out. Or perhaps it’s just pure panicking before I am getting my results.

Yeah, I dun think I am getting a good one but I really dunno how bad can it be. See, I am already thinking the worst scenario BEFORE I am getting my result. I think I will faint when I am in the school hall, when I am waiting for my result. Wth.

I am just so random and so free that you wanna kill me right? I really dunno why I am getting so uptight! Geez… get a grip of yourself TAY SIEW PING!

I think it’s all because I really need somebody to talk with.

I was just thinking is there a time you will doubt who you really are? Like your identity and how should you behave yourself and something. Because I just realize I know nothing about myself and I am one serious stupid dumbass. I need to figure out somehow. But I dunno how. That’s why I think maybe travelling helps.

Not so much CHEERS.

i wanna sleeeppppp!

2011-02-15T01:41:00.002+08:00

Hey peepsssss. I am so boring right now because I need to download all the movies I wanna watch before I go to sleep. but I am so sleepy at the same time because I had a three hours sleep yesterday. Wthhhh. Oh goshhhhhh. This explains the way I am writing now (please bear with it!:]) So I just decided to hang around my blog to tell you that I am alive! :D

Okay. My life Sucks much but I just feel so sad all my JC frens are going to army right nowwww. FB has never been so quiet before. Isshhhhhhhh. MISS THEM SO MUCHHHH!

I just met up with my ex physics tuition teacher and she said if I am closer to a bunch of guys instead of girls then I am highly likely I am a lesbian. The top kind of lesbian. And I was like “huh????” hahahaha…. She is still so funnyyyyyyy. :D

Anyway, we chatted for around two hours and I felt the time passed real quick omg. I miss her so much! Must find a day so we can chat more! But ironically, I was spending my Valentines’ day with my tuition teacher. What a great way of managing my time.

Oh goshhhh. She is so kind and she said sth that is real touched.

“I am worried for you!” whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa……. i wont tell you the context but omggg. this is so much better than having a bf (of course i'm not saying i wont wanna get one) this sounds so contradicting!

Anyway, this is a lame post. I am just doing this because I am waiting my movie to be downloaded. But heck! It’s only half way done. All the best to me mates! :D

Next Up: Updates on CNY! :)

Work Tomorrow!

2011-02-07T01:00:00.000+08:00

I feel so disappointed at you.

The day before CNY!

2011-02-02T11:00:00.003+08:00

Prepared for Chinese New year now. Bought a few dress and a few shirts for casual occasions. Satisfied. Just realized I am quite a spendthrift when I am in Cotton On. I dunno why the clothes over there always fit me. I swear! Not just trying to justify the amount of money I spent at Cotton On everytime I went there.

Anyway, I used to spend at least one hour FB-ing everyday but now my time is so scarce I only used the internet once every two days, which is a good thing because it means I am spending less time in internet. HAHA. Good for me.

Btw, I just got my new guitarrr!!! Yippee! Bought it with my own hard earned money. T_T gonna take care of my guitar like mad. HAHA. will try to upload a photo of my guitar. :D

and THANKS to cheng ling jie, i only paid RM1 for my lunch at season in city square. HAHA thanks a lot yaaaaa! guess he has no choice too since i kept pestering him for treating me. haha.

anyway, the meet up with the Councillors before CNY was great! we went for a lunch at season first, then we spent around one and a half hour shopping in Inner City. finally finally we went to Neway to sing karaoke for around 3 hours. i only spent like RM28 which is the best deal ever because we ate so much of food! the money i paid is like for the food not for the K. anyway, good for us consumers right? so i recommend NEWAY! but there is one thing i wait about neway, which is they always have this short advertisement song after the end of the song and before the start of the new song. which is kinda irritating, because i WANNA sing my song lah! not come here and listen to your advertisement songs wth. but since they charged me at low price, i will overlook this limitations of theirs. cheapo hor? :)

last but not leasttttt,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! :D

Guitars (finally)

2011-01-23T23:39:00.001+08:00

finally, i had my first guitar lesson! after knowing more about guitar, i know that i have a lot of things to learn. first of all, need to practise at least one hour everyday. need to have this kind of commitment if you wanna play better. SO JIAYOUS! but i have buy a guitar yet... sighhh (sensing another Epic fail)

but now i am totally falling in love with Sungha Jung. Maybe it's because the closest chance i can get a guy from my current working environment is that foreign worker who cuts the grass outside the kindergarten once a week. So I sorta use him to compensate my need (okay, this sounds so wrong! I dun mean it in other aspect in case you are thinking that) but omg, i think he's amazing. although i know tommy emmanuel is the best among all the guitarists. i just happily ignored that fact. yeah i am blind.

but i never know that's for sure cuz i only had one lesson. there's so much more i need to know. i feel so happy and excited for the things i will learn in the next few months! HOOTS! :D

Guitars

2011-01-21T21:09:00.003+08:00

Do you know I am typing the whole entry in Words and the copy and paste them into the textbox to post them at one go? Cuz everytime I decided to type inside the textbox, my internet just went hay wired and I cant connect to internet. I ended up doing the dull work of copying and pasting my unfinished entry into words and save them for later when my internet decided not to throw temper anymore. And this process repeated itself so many times that I just feel so nauseated I eventually gave up typing in the textbox. So from now onwards, my entry will be fully typed out in Words and saved inside my lappy. then transfer to here. HAHA. AMAZING MUCH? Okay, I am talking redundant stuff here. STOP IT SIEW PING!

So, let’s talk about my work. Working in kindergarten is kinda fun. Cuz you get to kiss and hug all these kids without them rejecting you (but of cuz you have to know them well first or else they will reject you like siao. HAHA…) I still remember when I first came to the school, there was this three years old girl who frowned when she looked at me, making me feeling so demoralized. Do I look so bad??? Haha.

Anyway, these days kids are really getting smarter and smarter. They make me feel so dumb when I was still in kindergarten. I was watching television shows all days as far as I can remember. And the kids nowadays actually questioning their rights and asked me,

“why adults never listen us kids and we must listen to the teachers (adults)?”

I was totally caught off-handed and “whoaaaa…..” but I was busy serving lunch for other kids so I don’t’ have the time to tell him more. But later on, I bring him to one corner and told him that he needs to have the discipline by listening to the teachers. Only then we are convinced to listen to you. MUAHAHAHAHA… very philosophical rightttt… MUAHAHAHAHAHA… okay enough with the arrogance.

CHEERS!

NEXT UP: talking more about guitar. :D

I love my work

2011-01-16T23:38:00.001+08:00

There's one nice thing about working. Everyday passed so fast that you are like "whoa! here goes another week." So here it goes. almost two weeks have passed! Even i feel like so shocked. Haha...

Anyway, kids in kindergarten are great. although some of them are naughty and crying non-stop, they are still generally cute and nice. you know how life is always a bit unfair. In kindergarten, it feels like everything is reciprocal. Like if you are being nice to a kid, he/she will like you and be nice to you too. but it's not necessary so when you do that to your friends or other people. So it's really kinda true about what they said, kids are like a piece of white paper, you will paint the colour on that paper and affect her for life. That's quite intimidating, which is why i was reluctant to work in kindergarten (i think everyone will kill me for saying that because so many people wanna work in kindergarten right?). i was reluctant because i was scared of the implications and the consequences if i fail to be a good teacher.

But i am trying my best to do so right now, so far i can tell i am not a very fierce teacher so all the kids don't really scare of me. bad thing about this is that it's hard on my part to keep them behave themselves if they are really naughty or having an adreline rush. good thing about this is that every kid likes to stick with me. Haha, envious me or not. MUAHAHAHAHA, okay enough with the complacency or else people will beat me up.

I have so many things overdue right now:

I haven't check and pluck out my wisdom teeth yet.

I havent sign up for my guitar lesson yet which i was so looking forward to it like zillion years ago.

I havent buy clothes for Chinese New Year yet. (Yes, i need to do this now because i am not free during weekdays, only left like 3 weekends before CNY? oh gosh, that's fast!)

I havent bake enough CNY cookies for my family and relatives yet.

I havent find out all the songs I had learnt when i was in kindergarten last time. need them for help in my work HAHA...

Okay, only these five urgent things i need to do. haha... so maybe there's not a lot of things. it's just they are roaming around my head and cant find a brain cell to stay with so i feel like there's so many things.

By the way, i read this new novel by JD Robb. "Fantasy in Death" Haha... not bad. i read about a quarter already and i like the flow and the plot of the story. Not so fantasy that i think that "what the hell, this aint happening in real life," but "hmmm, not bad. keep trying,". but i am guilty to say that i didnt finish twilight. BECAUSE IT IS SO BORING! i read almost half of the book and yet, edward HAVENT tell bella that he is a vampire! omggggg, please forgive me all the twilight fans. twilight is just not my taste.

but wthhhh! i bought the whole series because my friend strongly recommended it and now i regretted it. iishhhh! nvm. moral of the story. don't act immediately upon friends' recommendation. should have tried only one book first then decide. AHHHH! that's like a couple hundred dollars mannnn!

okay just realised i wrote a super long post without any photos because my internet decides to play hide and seek with me. so sorry. HAHA

CHEERS! :)

2011 Wishlist!

2011-01-02T20:19:00.003+08:00

People have their wishlist ready before the year 2011 while i planned it when it's year 2011. Haha, i guess it's fine and it's even up to you whether you wanna have a wishlist.

I never realise wishlist is kinda important for me because it actually like a reminder, telling me i still have aims in my life. Haha. but quite ironic i think. cuz since it is an aim, you supposed to work hard for it and all you can think of is that, right? so maybe wishlist is my not-very-important-goals-but-still-have-some-weightage aims. complicated much heh. Haha, i think i always complicate stuffs. anyway, so remember the list i said i wanna do in the entries a while ago?

here they are to refresh your mind.

1. watch harry potter movie

CHECKED

2. watch a horror movie with my friends and shout in the cinema

Not checked cuz there is no nice horror movie recently but i will keep this for the upcoming wishlist!

3. Sing karaoke with my friends!

CHECKED! i sang karaoke twice actually! One today with siewjuan they all and the other one during council chalet two weeks ago with my dearest council mates!

4. Prepare my US trip

Not checked, my father has some serious problem with me going overseas especially US! need to tell aini the bad news already. GEEZZZZ it is sooo suck!

5. Finish reading all the book i bought

Not checked. still reading my first book and it's like only half! the progress is ultra slowwwww.

6. get a job

CHECKED! i am working in a kindergarten. all my friends are so envious. HAHA... maybe they should change the best job from that Australia island keeper to kindergarten teachers!

7. Drive more

Not checked! I actually made my sister drove me around Kulai. AH! SUPER FAILLLL!

So after concluding my previous wishlist, these are my 2011 wishlist!

1. Drive more! (my TOP priority!)

2. Finish all the books i bought

3. Watch a horror movie with my friends (since i havent done this!)

4. Learn Guitar

5. Be a Good Teacher

6. Learn to put on Make up! (i find out i am those girls who seriously need makeup after my prom, maybe i should put on some makeup even when i am sleeping so my husband wont be shocked to death when he suddenly wake up in the midnight, realising he sleeping beside a monster)

7. Bake a lot of cookies for Chinese New Year

8. Try to convince my dad to let me go to Thailand with my friends. (which is almost impossible but i gotta try anyway!)

9. Try to lose weight! (GEEZZZZ, i am so freaking fatttt!)

I guess this is it. Haha, maybe i will update this list if i have any new goals pop up in my head. Haha...

Oh my goshhh. blogspot really sucksss! really need to find some new software so i can write my blog better. :)

Updates

2011-01-01T23:52:00.006+08:00

Hi all. so it's been a while since i update my blog because i have been living my life like a robot everyday. wanna know my timetable?

there it goes,

0630-0705 : Wash up and get ready for work
0715-1905: Working in the kindergarten

1905-2000: Dinner and Bath

2000-2100: crap with my sister or maybe handling my crops in FB games Haha

2100-2200: Watching Drama! (the 9.00pm show was real nice to my surprise!)

2200-2230: Watch news. oh god, i feel so auntie right now.

2230 and onwards: Sleeping

See why i said i live like a robot right now? I am not saying I don't like it but I just don't have much time to do other stuff like baking and reading. and i am supposed to squeeze in time to practise my guitar too! ishhhh! need to manage my time better!

By the way, i am supposed to update what happened after my council chalet. Haha. Okay i went clubbing after Prom. it was nothing actually because the whole school went to clubbing. and then i went to zoo with my dear friend Charrisa. I took a lot of photos because i didn't go to zoo for ages and there's so many animals i never see before! i feel so dumb! anyway, after that i went clubbing again with my friends, this time at Zirca and Rebel. Not bad, i enjoyed it! But don't think going again because i am a lousy drinker! Then it was the open house by Chun kit. Haha. we were playing Band heroes all the time. LOL. but at least it was kinda fun. :))))

Photos start now!

Clubbing after prom

then i went to Singapore Zoo with dear Charrisa

Clubbing with Friends:

went to Chun kit's house:

Uploading photos to blogger.com is really a pain in the ass. it's sooo freaking troublesome. All my alignment is gone and i need to rearrange them again! IISSHHHH!. fine, i shall do it patiently.

Anywa, my new job in the kindergarten was fine. Kids are quite easy to get along if you know how to do it. they accept you very easily. unlike some people i knoew who refused to embrace the others. they should learn that from kids. even a 3 years old kid are more forgiving than you. Shame on you!

Anyway, i am tired now and really need to crash right now. So adios my friends! Will tell you my wishlist for 2011 in my next entry!

Cheers! :)))

HAPPY NEW YEARRRR!

2011-01-01T23:47:00.002+08:00

HEY GUYS.

I wish you a happy new year and hope all your wishes come true!

(although i know it's not true, we should still have some hope)

Bored

2010-12-16T10:02:00.005+08:00

All my friends (most of them) are working now and so i was kinda bored in Singapore. except one or two of them are not working, which is good cuz i can stick to them to keep me accompanied. Yeah i dun wanna be alone. how hard is it to tell?

Anyway, i finally drink KOI yesterday and ate shrimp wonton. that shrimp wonton advertised in the TV. Forget the name but i think it's not too bad. Haha... but i actually prefer the soup over the shrimp wonton, it may be my taste and preference though. LOL

Maybe i am not a fan of shrimp so shrimp wonton does not appeal much to me.

Anyway, I am going to find a job when i get back to Malaysia which means no more entertainment for me anymore. Kulai doesn't really have much fun actually. it's kinda boring to singapore which almost place is accessible. Sigh nevermind. I think i need to get used to it.

长长的路上我想我们是朋友

如果有期待我想最好是不说

你总是微笑的你总是不开口

世界被你掌握

月亮绕地球地球绕着太阳走

我以为世界是座宁静的宇宙

今晚的天空有一颗流星划过

在预言着什麽

在无声之中你拉起了我的手

我怎麽感觉整个黑夜在震动

耳朵里我听到了心跳的节奏

星星在闪烁

你怎麽说

你心中一定有座浓雾的湖泊

任凭月光再皎洁照也照不透

你眼中闪烁湖面无边的温柔

那波光在诱惑

在无声之中你拉起了我的手

我怎麽感觉整个黑夜在震动

耳朵里我听到了心跳的节奏

星星在闪烁

你会怎麽说

在无声之中你拉起了我的手

我怎麽感觉整个黑夜在震动

耳朵里我听到了心跳的节奏

星星在闪烁

你会怎麽说

你已经有他就不应该再有我

世界的纯真此刻为你有迷惑

我想我应该轻轻放开你的手

我却没有力气这麽做

五月天-純真

i think the lyrics of this song speaks a lot for itself. i just think that i need to stop dreaming.

Detra de cada Mascara

2010-12-12T01:56:00.003+08:00

Hi guys. actually i am writing this post again cuz my internet failed me last time and lost everything i typed. Nah, so i am gonna do it again but short and sweet haha...

so the title of this entry was the title of my prom. it means "behind every mask" i think it's spanish or italian or something. Haha... i couldn't remember. anyway, i prepare what i can and after all the makeup and hairdressing, i become like this:

TADAH!

Yeah shocked right? a lot of my friends and teachers couldn't recognize me at the beginning and when they knew it was me, they went "wow, are you serious? what happen to you? what happen to your short hair?" Haha... yeah, thanks to all the fake hair, i look feminine again. i should probably get back my long hair again. HAHA...

okay. maybe cuz the mask. you can't see me clearly. you will get how i look when you continue to scroll down.

we just keep taking photos non stop. HAHA.. yeah that's what we do in prom!

i cannot find the Prom king photo but i did took one with him! =(

so that's how i spend my prom on 6th dec. After that, it was chalet with my council mates and then Pooling with my classmates and then visiting zoo with my friends charrisa.

shall update those later. i wanna watch my anime first. =)

By the way, my condolence to Kerissa who lost her dearest father on 4th Dec 2010. But she only informed us on 7th Dec 2010 because she doesn't make us feel bad before the prom. She is just forever thinking for other people. I felt so shocked when i received the text message and went to her dad's funeral before i went for my council chalet. she looked fine but i really dunno what else to say to her cuz i think it's a very scary time for her too. dunno what should i say to make her feel better. so just ask her how is she coping with her life? her dad had been the breadwinner of her family and she is the only kid in the family. poor thing. i pity her and her mum. they only left each other for the rest of their life. i can't imagine my life without my father or mother. such life will be dreadful for me. so i pray her dad can rest in peace in the heaven although i don't know him personally and vice versa. Rest in peace uncle. you will always be in kerissa's memory forever.

2010-11-23T23:12:00.002+08:00

hi peeps. Haha. so i am left with Biology Paper 1 which is nine days later. I wanted to post something yesterday but i was too tired to do that. i only slept like 1.5 hours which is so little and i saw eyebags! yeah i know people will say "isn't it very normal?" yeah i know but not for me. i have no eyebags or dark rings under my eyes which i think is the only good thing i inherit from my dad (cuz i got my small eyes from him!) Haha. so if i have got eyebag, it means i am really really tired. Haha... yeah i got real scared when i saw it cuz it's super duper ugly. i am not the type who wants to stay 100% beautiful in my entire life but it's just ugly, making me feel that i wanna die. so can you imagine how ugly i am if i have eyebags and dark rings under my eye?

"nah, you are ugly without those." Haha... yeah, i love self-criticism.

anyway, i have made like a list of things i gonna do to keep me busy and have a meaningful life after A level since it took away my two years. Haha... But on the bright side, i have earned myself friendship and love. Haha... so not a bad deal anyway.

List of things i am going to do:

1. watch harry potter movie (yeah this is like in everyone's list)

2. watch a horror movie with my friends and shout in the cinema (cuz i stop watching it since i ever have any memory, i am so scared of watching it alone, and it's nice to have company and they also shout with you haha)

3. Sing karaoke with my friends!

4. Prepare my US trip

5. Finish reading all the book i bought ( i bought a lot of new books like fiction or non-fiction and i think they are ten more besides "twilight" which i am reading now, i only read twilight now, i suck!)

6. get a job

7. DRIVE MORE! (l get my license like two years ago but i swear i drove less than ten times, excluding the time i spent practising before my driving exams)

So tadah! this is what i can think of right now, so the list will continue!

I am kinda moody cuz i thought i have to leave Singapore at 9 dec as i told my landlady i am going to rent it until december. which means i don't have much time left in singapore with my friends. Argh! anyway, luckily, my sister have to come to singapore and i get to stay for another two weeks! AH! nice!

and i have to give some credits to my new landlady. she is a lot nicer than my previous landlady. my previous landlady (let's call her PLL) sucks to the max. seriously, she is so petty and self-centred omg. okay stop it siew ping. stop complaining about her and getting negative externality in your life already.

and i have another tenant living across my room, in the room i rent previously. she told me she has been busy that's why she didnt stay over here right now. but i think she is just lying to me. who the hell will pay S$300 for 6 months for a room they never come over to crash. plus she is a working adult, i am sure she knows money better than i do. in conclusion, PLL sucks TTM!

anyway, i love time like this. i can do whatever i want. Haha. so see ya around next time guys. Haha, going to continue reading my twilight. :)

PS: i just read Naruto manga and i cried so badly when i read the chapters on how naruto's parents die. omg, yondaime and his wife are so poor things. sigh, luckily i didn't leave in a ninja world. and yondaime is so handsome, pity for him to die at such a young age.

PS2: i saw this video and i think he is damn good.

Justin Timberlake - LoveStoned (Boyce Avenue acoustic cover)

ciao guys~

i wanna travel

2010-11-18T20:23:00.002+08:00

Hi guys. Tomorrow i will be having my economics paper. and i was kinda looking forward to it two days ago. yeah i looked forward to taking a A level paper, imagine how pathetic my life is. nah. not because i think i am very prepared. it's just that i studied chemistry so much i wanna puke and distract myself with economics concepts.

economics is kinda fun sometimes, because it is really about understanding and make some sense. For chem and bio is like throw in everything you know and tadah, you got your marks. but economics requires you to write some of your thinking processs. I lost some of the marks because i never clarify why A lead to B to C. I straightaway said it's B lead to C, haha, so i lost marks, although i think of A, i thought A is not important and i left it out. so i was like wth whenever i saw the marking scheme. HMPH!

anyway, but now i just wanna throw away econs and planning my US trip and other outings. oh my god, A level is only going to finish in 14 days!!!! that's like 2 weeks and i am already feeling so bored and sianz and tired and wanna slackkkk! okay lah enough for the complain.

some of my friends have their parents come over to cook food and support them mentally which is like soooooo niceeeee! omg, i want that too. but it is impossible cuz both of my parents are working especially in the end of the year, that's when they get super busy with extra business orders. which is good, i am not saying it is bad. without them working so diligently everyday, where do i get my money from right?

so, in order to make myself feel better, i allow myself to eat better food, actually more to indulging into something i like. i become like more spendthrift (not really use A LOT of money but just a bit more than how i would spend in the usual day).

okay, i really hope tml's paper is manageable for me. or else i will feel like crap like what happen when i checked my answer for Maths Paper 1. yeah i really felt like crap and wanna shout all the vulgarities at one go to vent out my frustration. but now i feel nothing cuz i have other papers to deal with.

what else i havent mention? oh yeah, my other papers, so how did i do for my other subjects? hmmm, well, after going through three major exams in Malaysia by regurgitating what i have learn.... A level is like HELL for me.

yeah. cause ya know at my time, all the questions are asked in almost identical way. there are the same phrase, same situation, and same conditions, everything the same. so yeah, all you need to do is really just familiarize and commit everything to memory. so yeah TOTALLY DIFFERENT!

so, i am gonna go now and have a sleep because i am really tired. luckily my paper is in the afternoon. i don't have to wake up early in the morning. So, finally one HOORAY for me.

cheers

PS: i still remember last year around this time, i am done with PW and midcourse. slacking the whole day. how nice.

4 days

2010-11-04T22:43:00.002+08:00

4 more days to something that will determine how my life is gonna be in the next few years.

4 more days left for Biology, Chemistry, Maths, Economics, and General Paper.

4 more days i gonna walk into the hall to take my first paper.

but i still feel very unprepared and i am scared what's coming out is something i didn't prepare. i know i am not fully prepared. but there is nothing much left to say. i will try my best and what i can. no use doubting myself anymore. this is not the correct time.

Jiayou SIEW PING! ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR A's!

(i feel so pathetic wishing myself goodluck, haha...)

CHEERS! :)

last day of school

2010-10-21T19:18:00.005+08:00

School used to be just a place i am forced to go to have my education. I have friends but we normally busy with our family and homeworks so i barely care much about them. yeah i was like that when i was young. i don't really think i need friends because i have my family and i rely a lot on them. you can't imagine a girl who used to not having much friends and rely a lot on her family, will be so sentimental right now.

i actually have this question when i was young: "why do one need friends?" cause i think they are not necessary. maybe it's just social convention one must have friends in order to show that they know how to socialize. yeah, that was my answer to my own question.

but things change so much when i got here. i am on my own now. when i first came to school, I don't really know that i attracted a lot of attention cuz i was wearing a baju kurung. well, that WAS my secondary uniform. Haha. so they all think that maybe i came from some religion school. Haha. so basically this makes me look like a freak in the first day of my school. yeah, can you imagine they normally dress like this,

even malays, i mean everyone. so that's their idea about uniform. some girls even alter their skirts so it is like super short, like mini skirts. i mean it. imagine that happen in my school. the teacher scold you for even showing your socks! i mean for those who are wearing baju kurung lah.

and this is what i used to wear in school. i mean the third from the right.

so it means our culture like kinda different, more western-oriented but of course they are still people who are holding on Asian values and i am not saying it's wrong. it's just that their mindset is different from us.

when i first met my classmate, i think they are okay but i don't really know them so i don't really talk a lot plus i don't usually talk a lot (before i came here and influenced by talkative friends like Mr Benjamin Cheng Lingjie and Mr Dave Chua Guangjin), so we basically went to separate ways after school. school, again, is just another place where i receive my education.

but i starting to feel a bit lonely. despite the fact that i thought i can be do everything by myself. but the truth is, i can't. i started to know more friends along the way and i realised i have a bunch of very nice friends with me. i met a few of them during my orientation and up till now, we still trying to hang out and talk. like Kerissa and Jude and of course my beloved HGL, Eunice and WeiJie. They are very nice. Thanks to Kerissa, i knew Charrisa and Wanxin. they are my first group of friends in Singapore.

Me, Charrisa, Kerrisa, Nasriah (i knew her this year), jude, and wanxin

then i went out for class outing. my first class outing ever.

i was still not really open up yet. so it kinda make people don't dare to approach me cuz they still i am quite a nerd and stubborn. Haha.

and i starting to know council mates more. we went through a lot of events and sometime we have to stay in school until very late and might have to come to school early in the morning, like what happen in the orientation.

all the house group leaders from Taurus

All the Taurus members

me and two house group leaders of talcyone! ROHAN and MINGBIN! You guys are great! Thanks for taking up the role when i was absent.

and of course, my orientation group! they are a bunch of monkeys but they are nice people!

this was my group last year.

and this are mine, with ming bin and rohan.

Orientation was really fun. You played and played and played like there is no tomorrow. you also get to know friends who you think you never ever get the chance to talk to cause you know like your studies never overlap and have no common topics. but now, you saw each other occasionally in the canteen and smiled at each other. or even talked, "hey! you are the HGL from what what house and blah blah blah and orientation is fun blah blah blah."

people like clarence (the one in the middle, with no horn, omg he was the vice captain how could he not wear the legendary horns!) who likes to crap, for example is someone i think i will never ever talk to without this orientation.

okay, i gotta stop talking orientation. or else it sounds like i am talking about what happen during orientation.

anyway, the reason i brought up orientation because i knew so many friends and i really learn a lot of things. i never knew it can be this fun.

and now i will like to dedicate this part to my council mates. i swear i feel so lucky i choose this CCA. i was actually considering ODAC when i first applying for the CCA (i am not saying ODAC is not good or anything, don't get me wrong). i put council as my second choice. yeah i did that. and mr teo came to ask me why did i do so. i just told him i wanted to try something different and blah blah blah. but in the end, i changed my mind cuz the president of the Student council knew about this and told me if i really want to go for leadership, i should choose council. so yeap. here i go, i told mr teo i wanted to go for council and finally i am in it.

but there is so many people in my CCA and we don't really get to know each other. so normally we just smile at each other out of courtesy, (okay let me just be clear, i am like that lah, they are still people who smile at you sincerely, i am just a cynic in nature). you can't really blame me for that cuz i don't really know you and i have other things to worry about. like my landlady and my study.

so we went through pre U seminar together, teachers' day, student investiture, grad night, orientation (i mentioned at the beginning), Leadership training camp phase 1 and 2, and our step down ceremony. it sounds nothing to you maybe. but it sure means a hell lot to me cuz the things we went through in some of the events are things that made up of who we are. or at least, who i am.

and then we hang out.

when i have some problems with my landlady i can just grumble to my friends and they will all go "yeah, that stupid landlady." and all the way to scold her with me to make me feel good.

they are nice. okay i told all my friends and all of them are very supportive.

but i am really very close to my council mates cause we really spend a lot of time together. i really like them so i am really looking forward to the chalet at the end of the year! :D

and now my classmates. some of my classmates are kinda wild i admit. my class is not perfect i have to say, but i still like it cause there are still many nice people. like audrey who i am very close with starting this year and also shahirah. audrey has the talent of being humorous and funny and also sarcastic, but not all the time i have to say. haha, but still, she really make my life a lot of interesting too.

our class have a few class outings. one of which is the picture i showed earlier.

and these are some photos i grabbed from the facebook. Haha. i never knew i have quite a number of outings with my class mates. HAHA....

the last few photos came from Mr lin's treat to Seoul garden. Omg, i feel like i owe him so much.

anyway, we celebrated his birthday in school and it's always during school time.

2009

2010

some left us and some join us. it doesn't seem much different. right?

i would really like to say thank you for those who bring laughter in my life. and also those who hurt me. because of you, i grow stronger.

anyway, a few photos to sum up my entry. (oh gosh, this is like super long!!!!)

so this is me when i first entered Innova Junior College.

and this me leaving Innova Junior College.

do you see the changes within me? i can feel it and see it. i can notice the differences and i can say that i am glad to have my education over here.

i hope i wont cry too much tomorrow. i came in with a big smile. i want to leave the school with a big smile. but i think it's fine to have some tears. i am human after all.

bye people. this is it. i spent three hours on this. yeah, a lot of time right. i knew. but i wanted to say something. and this something turn out to be a super long post.

Cheers.

PS: this post is so long i don't want to reread to check any spelling errors or grammar mistakes, so if you see one, you can laugh as much as you can cuz i am lazy to change it.

I cried so much I hate myself.

2010-10-14T22:52:00.000+08:00

Just now I was talking to my mum I nearly cried. But I quickly hung up the phone so my mum wont know. I dunno how come I cry so easily these days. I feel so ashamed of it. And today during the assembly when Mr Paul chow was saying, “I know some of you are very stressed here and cry a lot too,” I almost cried. I dunno why am I such a crybaby but I guess that’s because I get what he meant. But sometimes I cry so much everyday makes me really hate myself. People are handling it well but I couldn’t. This shows what kind of people I am. I suck. End of the story.

I cried so much I hate myself.

Going through these by myself sometimes is tough

2010-10-09T21:51:00.005+08:00

I am quite sure I am not mature enough for a girl who is 19. sometimes i couldn't see the root cause of the problem and straight away dived into some assumptions i made. but i guess i start to realise this right now. and i know sometimes you have to do certain things by yourself. no matter how tough it it, no matter how unwilling you are, you still have to face it.

now, it's the uncertainty that's crushing me. honestly, i feel nothing right now. and i am not very sure am i feeling numb or simply i give up. i am not sure. A level is coming nearer and nearer and i don't feel the stress. and this is what is stressing me right now. weird huh? true. i agree with you. i am worrying because i am not worrying. what an irony.

and that's when i know what is important in my life and what's not. so i am gonna focus on those who really love me. If you are not, i will simply treat you as a stranger in my life. that's all. i won't spend my time and efforts on you.

i think i just found out who i really am. it's quite sad. but better than never right?

Cheers! =)

THIS BLOG IS TWO YEARS OLD! :D

2010-10-06T16:25:00.003+08:00

when i was three, i hated my parents because they refused to let me drink chocolate milk everyday.

when i was five, i loved them because they finally got me a tricycle (something i have been asking for a long time but they won't let me cuz they scared that i might fall down)

when i was eight, i think i don't really think i need parents cuz i can manage my own life.

when i was eleven, i totally agreed with my teacher when she said human should leave their children when they are five, like what the penguins and the fish and the frogs did.

when i was fifteen, i hated my parents for not allowing me get into a relationship.

when i first came to singapore, i was so happy that i can finally live on my own, without restriction from my parents.

when i live in Singapore for almost two years on my own, i know i cannot live without my parents.

sometimes i stare at the computer screen blankly or watch some funny shows when i feel sad. if i really need to cry then i listen to some sad songs and cry it out loud. and now my landlady is scolding her maid with her super high pitch voice. oh my gosh, hope she can finish her lecture as soon as possible cuz i still wanna do my maths lecture worksheet.

ah yes, this time i pass my maths, like finally! Haha. but still sad cuz i did more practices for maths than for bio, but in the end, my prelim 2 maths result still so lousy. sigh.... anyway, i don't want to score lower than a B for maths in a level. oh my gosh, that will be hell. Haha....

anyway, i feel very terrible now cuz i accidentally deleted 3/4 chunk of this entry just now and now i dun feel like rewriting it again. cuz it's so long and so emo and lame. Haha... whoa, good, the scolding finally stop. i pitied my landlady's maid cuz she everyday kena scolding. like endless man! last time my landlady actually bother to spend TWO hours to explain to her what is a marriage and i was inside my room, overheard everything she said. omg. two hours eh!!! i can watch like four episodes of "how i met your mother" plus a few minutes free at the end. Haha...

oh gosh, the scolding started again. sigh...

CHEERS!

PS: my internet over here is terribly slow! that's why i will blog less frequently. HAHA... and no pictures too. bear with me cuz i am so lazy to wait for a picture to load. it will take another five more minutes. seriously.

PS1: i am amazed by someone. instead of studying, you go around and pick up fights.

oh my gosh. i hate cockroach to the max

2010-09-26T03:26:00.002+08:00

okay i know this is very common for a lot of people i mean who the hell will love cockroach. but oh my gosh, there is this one very huge cockroach inside my room right now and i feel like running away from my room and go to Macdonald. should i or should i not? sigh i reli dunno. it had been two years since i blogged at such a weird time cause i reli cannot sleep. this time the reason was because of a cockroach. this is SOOOOO lame. that cockroach is reli freaking me out! oh my gosh, ah! my feelings for you, dear cockroach, has escalated to another level beyond my imagination. i so hate you and the thought of me staying inside a room with YOU make me wanna say.... URGH! i hate you i hate you i hate you.

seriously, this is the first time, without caffeine, i don't feel sleepy at all. why you choose to enter my room instead of other places! there's kitchen and so many rooms and so many toilets! i demand an answer. okay you are driving me nuts i obviously asking for something that will never ever happen.

i think this photo show actually how i feel right now. but of cuz, it's not camel but a cockroach in my case.

ah great, this is exactly what i need one day before the school starts. this sucks so much! i am going to put cloth underneath my door to block any of your friends coming into my room in the future. i hate you once again.

oh god, i feel like crying right now.

sigh, i guess i really need a sleep cuz i am talking nonsense now. but i just can't! ARGH! and now my dear MSN chose to disappoint me and wont let me log in at this very moment so at least i can talk to someone (ARE YOU KIDDING ME!?). what the hell. luckily the internet is not down or else, i may really end up in Mac and this post will never be published. HAHA.

sigh, i feel so weird and scary right now. i hope the cockroach i saw just now dunno how to fly. if it does, i will really go out of my room and go to mac at 4 o'clock in the morning.

when you are coming through my door next time, i will treat you.....

THIS!

pesticide. thank you very much. bye bye.

should i go mac? okay i think i going mac. i really cannot stand that cockroach. i will change my clothes and brush my teeth and then go to mac immediately.

here i come MAC!

cheers!

Updates

2010-09-23T22:45:00.003+08:00

updates of what i am doing, from the most recent to the past.

22092010 Wednesday

So i had a celebration for mid-autumn yesterday night till 12 plus with ling jie, guangjin, yongbang, junhong and yeeliang. it was reli fun.

can you see the word "zhong qiu"? maybe just make the picture smaller u can see the pattern, it's not distinct, i admit.

we trying to take a photo with the word but it turns out to be a lump of light. Haha.

Playing lantern time! actually i am the one who really plays it. the guys mostly burning something or trying to stick the candles in this way.

guangjin's work

with yeeliang and guangjin

Making of the word "zhongqiu" actually only yongbang relentless making it. the rest of us is either burning or eating or playing lantern. HAHA like me, see the lantern is beside me!

i dunno what's with the cat but we ended up taking a lot of photos with it. Haha....

of cuz special thanks to Lingjie (our project manager) and Yongbang (the logistic and treasurer). haha the three of us went to buy the junkfood and candle and stuff at 4 pm first before we meet up haha)

thanks again lingjie and yongbang!

so. it was reli a successful one. =)

ended with the first photo again.

some random photos we took in RP when we study together.

this is like dunno how many years ago already. Haha. but lingjie, guangjin and i met up to study for prelim 2, so consider recent lah. Haha.

03092010 Wanteng's birthday!

I believe birthday is very important so i like to celebrate birthday for my friends! wanteng is one of my closest friends in singapore. she is very caring and nice to me when i first started out in Singapore. Haha. thank you so much wanteng. your existence is so important to me that i can't describe them in word.

okay my eyes is small.

with the cake and chunkit and the birthday girl!

classmates who are there to celebrate her birthday

07082010 At seoul's garden

Mr Lin's treating us at Seoul Garden. Haha. i felt so bad whenever he's treating us. then i told him about it, he said," just do well in the exam then it'll be fine."

but it's not fine to me! i seriously feel bad lo. next time i wont accept any treat from him already. (determined!)

camwhore session during the meal.

and of course, the star of the event.... MR LIN!

Haha.... without him, this will never happen. so, really thanks alot mr lin and i feel very very bad for causing your wallet become so empty and your bank account less money. sorry.

so, anyway, i went through hell and heaven in the month of august and september. because there is prelim and also festivals. i reli wonder how did i do in prelim 2. because i guess u can somehow gauge where are you judging your Prelim 2 results. and this time, please i really hope i didnt screw up maths like i used to. but i definitely screwed up chem cause i never study for it. i was going to say there are reasons why i didn't but i guess it's just some excuses i use to make myself feel better. A level is in 39 days. can i do well? i am scared and uncertain of it. for econs, hmmmm, i really don't know. i think the paper is okay but i dunno did i answer it well. for bio, sigh, paper 2 i lost 20++ marks for sure for the blanks i left. paper 3 i anyhow do the planning cuz i dunno what to include. paper 1 i have some careless mistakes. sigh. that's why i am so curious about my prelim 2 results. i am so scared. let's pray for siew ping.

oh god. this is such a long post. this will always happen if i have many things to update. if not, it's just gonna be a short emo post about my feelings or what've i done recently.

my internet is very slow in my new landlady's house. they said they went to complain alr. hope things turn out well. =)

CHEERS!

i want to eat cake

2010-09-17T21:46:00.002+08:00

i did post an entry two days ago but cuz of the slow internet i never know the post didn't upload properly. haish... nevermind lah. anyway, i just bought a big tub of chocolate milk. oh my god. it's so nice i can finish it by tomorrow. but cannot lah, as wanteng said, i will waste my five dollar by tomorrow. yeah the milk costs me five dollar.

and i bought a lot of croissant today! yes! i am tired of normal bread from sunshine and gardenia. frow now on until i get tired of it, croissant will be my love. haha. sometimes i am amazed how happy i can get with little things like the choc milk and croissant i bought. Haha... anyway, i am gonna read all the novels and books i bought during this period after a level cuz i totally dun have the time for them right now. so yeah another item for me to take note of after my A level:

1) travel

2) get DSLR

3) read novel

the first book i am gonna read is definitely twilight cuz i heard all my frens said it's nice. yeah u can laugh at me cuz i think i am the only person who never read them (exclude those are illiterate). cuz i dun like the movie and i assume the book is not nice. my assumption is like sooo wrong. oh my freaking god.

for maths paper 2, i dunno is my eyes functioning properly or not. i skipped question 5 part b and do the stats instead. i never see that part so i never attempt it. i was like one freaking stupid idiot. oh my god. that's like a 5 mark questions! about de moivers theorem btw. my friend said it's easier to solve! argh! and i just left it there and do other questions. oh my god. i guess i just have to make sure this doesn't happen in my real A level or else i will be very down for a very long time.

anyway, i just found out someone who looks very obedient can be very psycho in mind. i read it from newspaper and watched it from tv. but i never know there is one within my social circle. it just feel so scary sometimes how u can't see clearly about a person's personality and character.

just wanted to post this pic because taemin in girls uniform look even hotter than me! haish!

oh my god! they look so good! btw, i am totally shocked when i know minho and key have the same age as me! oh my gosh!

anyway, i am going to sign off and eat some croissant before i sleep. haha. bye folks!

Cheers!

PS: i watch a lot of gay movies and dramas. they are so sweet! but my gay friends told me they are not true and i feel sooo sad.

hi guys. blogging from my new room.

2010-09-12T10:52:00.003+08:00

Haha. finally i get out from my ex-landlady room. i am not going to say anything anymore because i guess i did that on numerous occasions so i dun want to spoil my mood for doing it now again. :)

anyway, my new landlady is okay. the internet is okay right now, now i guess it's just prelim 2 and A level that's freaking me out. oh my god, please give me no gayfriends anymore (not that i hate gay) but please give me equal number of boyfriends please. i have no boyfriends since i broke up with one last year. sigh. i talked about this with my other friend, Haha, he also wants a girlfriend desperately. LOL. (oh, why cant u two be together?) Nah, we are like sisters or brothers, only have a very strong bond as friends lah. HAHA. he's like sister to me and he said i am like a brother to him so,

it will never happen.

i am going to go back to msia after my A level and then maybe i will go travelling. i am dying to travel to other places to see and learn new things. okay let me tell you what will make me very happy:

item 1: eat a very good breakfast and lunch and dinner

item 2: have a DSLR! oh my god, this will be in my wishlist till the day i have it!

item 3: travel to other countries like taiwan (my first choice), Iceland (my second choice), australia (my third choice) and korea and japan etc etc. when i say choice it doesn't mean once i choose one of them, i will forego the other one. nope. it just means the sequence i am going. =)

item 4: have a boyfriend please, siew ping, please make yourself more attractive so you can attract guys like this

okay. i have already rant a lot now. i am so scared for prelim 2 because i havent start on maths and chem much. i spent three days moving into my new room and wasted a lot of time. i going to eat lunch first. bye bye. i love you all. :)

cheers!